I am getting really anxious. I have 2 1/2 weeks to go until my due date. I am definitely ready for this pregnancy to be over. I am very ready to meet my sweet new baby girl! Although Tony likes to keep worrying me about what if it's a boy. I am 100% positive it is a girl, but I know mistakes have been made before. I have absolutely NO boy names picked out, so if it is a boy, it will be little boy Black I guess.
I am not feeling ready in other aspects however. I am feeling better about having baby supplies, but it is hard to think of everything. I think I am ready with the basics though. I need to wach the carseat cover, and install the carseat in the car, and then that's ready. I washed the baby clothes yesterday, so her little clothes are ready. I do need to buy some bleach and wash all the white onesies that are from Logan's baby days. I have only purchased one new package of white onesies, but Logan's are all stained. I will see what bleach will do, but I might need to go get some more.
I need to move the rocking chair from Logan's room into the baby's room still. I am sad to do that because I still like to rock Logan on occasion. Mostly when he is having a hard time going to bed, if I rock him for a few minutes he will calm down. Plus, he was my first baby. The chair is denim though, and it definitely doesn't match the baby's room. I am not sure what to do about that. I know it isn't that big of a deal, but I am pretty particular about things these days. Once the baby is here, I might not really care about it for a while.
I need to pack my hospital bag, and make arrangements for Logan for when I actually go into labor. If it happens after Feb. 1st, then my mom will be here. I hope it happens before then however. I would like my mom to be here when the baby is born, but I am willing to wait a few days if I have to. I am just nervous about dealing with a newborn AND a 2 1/2 year old without any help. Tony won't be able to take time off work too much to help. He could, but it would be without pay. I guess we will just cross that bridge when we come to it. I have had two friends here offer to take Logan for me, but in that case I hope the baby doesn't come too soon , because one family has been sick, and the other is sick right now. I do not want to get sick, or have Logan get sick anytime soon. I also don't know what's going to happen with the delivery, so if I am recovering from a c-section, I will for sure need help. I am really hoping I can have a VBAC this time.
That brings me to my last worry. I am worried that I will have to have another c-section, and that makes me sad, and unhappy about the recovery process. I have been feeling rather positive and hopeful about having a VBAC, so I hope those feelings are justified. But then I am nervous about that process as well, since I haven't experienced it yet. I am really not looking forward to labor either. It was so long for me last time. I am confident that things will happen the way they are supposed to, and that I will have a healthy baby,and it will all be over in just a few weeks. I am just not looking forward to the process.
Now that I have bored you all significantly with my worries, I will sign off now. I just needed a place to vent. Tony doesn't like to listen to me much. He is ready whenever...he doesn't think it is necessary to have all these things done before hand. I sometimes wish that men could catch a brief glimpse of what we women go through to have these babies. They would really appreciate us then!
Sunday, January 14, 2007
2 1/2 weeks...yikes!
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
4 comments:
Reading your blog was like going through a time warp back to when Dave was 2 1/2 and Liz was born (except for the VBAC thing). I think everything you're worrying about is so normal, don't feel bad! All I can say is that the second child is about a billion times easier. I had such better expectations for recovery and newborn life. I was so worried about Dave, that he would be neglected. Instead he grew up into a really mature boy. It was one of the best things that happened to him. I'm excited to have a 3rd someday because I know how great it will be for Liz too.
Sometimes the anticipation can be worse than actually having the baby. I was so happy after Liz was born, even though the second hurt as bad as the first. It was over! Soon it will be over for you too! Keep blogging!
Thanks for the positive remarks! You know how stressful things feel at the tail end of a pregnancy!I am worrying about everything at some moments, and then not caring about much the next. It will happen soon enough. I guess I better enjoy my little boy while i can before my attention will be taken by a new little someone.
Yeah, I felt exactly the same way before Paul was born. In fact I felt scared and worried the whole pregnancy. But...it was honestly great! You know exactly what to expect and it will be way easier because of that. I really enjoyed my second delivery so much that as soon as he was born I thought, "wow, that wasn't so bad, I could do this again!" Now that's a scary thought.
But good luck - you are going to do great!
You may think I'm weird for commenting since you don't know me. I saw a link to your blog from Andrea & Tyler's blog. My sister is married to Tyler's cousin, if that makes any sense. I was just like you - hoping for a VBAC. Turns out I had another c-section since I didn't go into labor on my own, etc, etc. And you know, the 2nd c-section was much better than the first. Recovery was much easier because I knew what to expect. So, if that happens, things will work out. I hope everything goes well for you. It is a nervous sort of time. Good luck with everything in the next few weeks!!!
Post a Comment